Law School is this black hole that no one can properly prepare you for no matter how much they warn you to run the other direction and just become a plumber instead so you don't have hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt and no life. It makes you forget every good interesting thing about yourself and become trained to issue spot, analyze, and face every minute little flaw you may have in your communication skills. Basically, I know why lawyers are so expensive!! What an experience.......a good one though and one I am still happy I chose. I may have -234666 hours of free time but I it challenges me and keeps me on my toes.
I got through a huge milestone last week of the "oral argument". I've never been one who enjoys public speaking but I must say....I kicked a little butt up there ;). Really glad to have it done and over though!
I have had so little free time (well none really, I steal law school time for fun sometimes). I barely see my friends, family, husband, horse, or even my cats. I am either at work or at school or burried in a computer/book. I miss everyone I treasure in my life so very much and I fear they think I have forgotten about them. Not true! Every day I do a little mental run down on everyone important in my life and send out "good energies" in their directions. Just because I don't talk to everyone everyday does not mean that I in any way love or appreciate them less.
The past few months in particular have been so crazy. Miss E discovered that she will have a wee one joining her life in September and while I was shocked by the realization for a few weeks, I quickly decided this is going to awesome for her. She has always wanted to be a Mommy and I can think of no one else I know who will be a better parent! Plus, I kind of get to be involved a bit which is way cool, especially since I don't want to have children myself. (The law student in me is thinking how I can write a will with the wee one as my heir since I will have no "issue" myself....ahhh!!). I'm so proud of Miss E, she is the bravest person I know and she is my role model for rolling with the speed bumps life throws us. I can tell you she sure has inspired me to follow my dreams and just enjoy life for all that it is.
In the past few weeks I have rediscovered my passion for horses. This is a really bad thing for my studies. I moved my horse to a new barn and I couldn't be happier. I am riding her so much more, really have some points to work on, and went on the most amazing trail ride last week. However this week stuff is catching up with me as I need to be at the barn for the farrier/dentist and I just don't think I can because of work/school commitments. Luckily there is an amazing group of people there to help out and many have offered to be there for me.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Touche!
I should also mention right about now that we're both rather competitive people, mostly against ourselves in our own heads. We have to assume this makes us better people or else we sure are wasting a lot of brain energy! E did a fabulous job of summarizing where we both are right now in our lives and I'm pretty sure that by now, she knows me better than I know myself.
There is a past that comes along with everyone. Baggage that is good/bad/otherwise but things that have made us who we are today. We've both come to our places and values in life through rather different paths. At 16 I met my husband and while it was not the plan to spend my life with one man (especially one I met in dreaded high school) that is what happened. E had plans to be married and have started a family by now but instead she's deviated to work 2 jobs and attend grad-school full time in order to truly help children in such a selfless manner that only she could accomplish. In some ways we're jealous of the others place in life but truth is, we both truly love our lives.
I've found that no matter how much you plan your life and have expectations of people and events, there is still a force out there that nudges us down the dark side of that fork in the road sometimes. And by "dark side" I don't necessarily mean scary/bad/negative- I mean the road less traveled, the more difficult path that takes you up some rocky & craggy trails. E & I seem to love that road! Where she leaps head first with hands in the air I stop, look around, and take a slower leap.
As far as friendships go, E has friends in her life for longer than I could ever fathom. She's tolerant, accepting, loving, and kind. You'll always have a chance to screw up and she'll be there when you're done. She also has an uncanny knack for kicking you in the nuts while giving you a big hug at the same time. E tells it like it is and while she doesn't sugar coat things, she knows how best to present it to you so it will be best received. No matter what path you take, she will always walk beside you, in front of you, or behind depending on what you need at the time.
Friends are something I have never trusted. Friends are selfish, they betray you, they never care about your problems. Every other close friend I've had has used me and my propensity to listen and be there. I learned to fear offering my honest advice because I could loose the friendship. More than love I sought friends. Love was easy, success in friendships always allusive. Now, with a true friend, I trust that I can be as honest about my inner-most thoughts. Though we're very different, on the inside we just get each other. That is such a rare gift and I am truly blessed to have been patient enough, and open to enough experiences and relationships that I finally got it right!
Now on to our interesting quips and observations!
There is a past that comes along with everyone. Baggage that is good/bad/otherwise but things that have made us who we are today. We've both come to our places and values in life through rather different paths. At 16 I met my husband and while it was not the plan to spend my life with one man (especially one I met in dreaded high school) that is what happened. E had plans to be married and have started a family by now but instead she's deviated to work 2 jobs and attend grad-school full time in order to truly help children in such a selfless manner that only she could accomplish. In some ways we're jealous of the others place in life but truth is, we both truly love our lives.
I've found that no matter how much you plan your life and have expectations of people and events, there is still a force out there that nudges us down the dark side of that fork in the road sometimes. And by "dark side" I don't necessarily mean scary/bad/negative- I mean the road less traveled, the more difficult path that takes you up some rocky & craggy trails. E & I seem to love that road! Where she leaps head first with hands in the air I stop, look around, and take a slower leap.
As far as friendships go, E has friends in her life for longer than I could ever fathom. She's tolerant, accepting, loving, and kind. You'll always have a chance to screw up and she'll be there when you're done. She also has an uncanny knack for kicking you in the nuts while giving you a big hug at the same time. E tells it like it is and while she doesn't sugar coat things, she knows how best to present it to you so it will be best received. No matter what path you take, she will always walk beside you, in front of you, or behind depending on what you need at the time.
Friends are something I have never trusted. Friends are selfish, they betray you, they never care about your problems. Every other close friend I've had has used me and my propensity to listen and be there. I learned to fear offering my honest advice because I could loose the friendship. More than love I sought friends. Love was easy, success in friendships always allusive. Now, with a true friend, I trust that I can be as honest about my inner-most thoughts. Though we're very different, on the inside we just get each other. That is such a rare gift and I am truly blessed to have been patient enough, and open to enough experiences and relationships that I finally got it right!
Now on to our interesting quips and observations!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Tricky Tribulations
A blog started by friends, and continued even after the friendship ended. I need a place, an outlet, so while no one will read this- at lest it is there!
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